I swear there’s a birth story coming at some point (though it isn’t all that exciting– walk in, get numb, take babies out, sew Kate up…), but for now, I just have to say that there’s not much better than spending your day napping in bed with an adorable, sleep-heavy squeaking little dough-lump snuzzling on your chest. Except the fact that this one is yours to keep. And that later, you get to do the same thing, only with his brother. Sigh. I truly can’t remember a time feeling this much happiness and love. I feel so incredibly lucky.
I can’t honestly say I know a whole lot about what it’s like to endure lengthy and tragic treatments and procedures, to be truly and utterly beaten down by infertility (again, we are so lucky to have been so quickly and accurately diagnosed the first time) but I can say that if I had any advice for my friends still in the trenches, it would be that based on feeling what I feel right now, it’s all worth it. The years of not knowing and struggling to concieve without an RE, and then dealing with the appointments and scheduling and painful procedures and injections, the “what if”s and doubts and emotional fuckery– all of it is nothing compared to this bliss. Perhaps I would feel differently if my treatment story had been longer or more wrought with intense tragedy and pain and disappointment and expense– I don’t know. But I do know that from this side of things, I would race back in time to tell my year-ago self (or two or three or seven-year-ago self) that this is THE BEST. The absolute best. And it is truly my biggest wish for all of my bloggy friends to find bliss lke this at the end of their journey (even if parenthood isn’t your eventual end). It is just so much better and more amazing than I ever imagined it could be. And this happiness should belong to everyone.
Sigh. Let me stop myself before I begin singing Kum Bah Ya… Besides, The Beatles said all of this better than I ever could:
“And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.”
Love, love, love…