I’ve had posts rolling around in my head for days, but lately, I’ve just been feeling pretty ‘meh’ about writing anything. The fall semester has begun, and H has gone back to work full-time, and I am tired. (Everyone say it with me now…) It’s just plain hard caring for two at the same time, and I’m starting to feel a little burnt out. I’m doing what I can to break up the monotony (boys: wake up, nurse, snooze, nurse, snooze, etc.), but I just can’t get anything done.
Henr.y had a trip to the doctor this last week due to a morning of gagging epispodes after he vomited up mucous, over and over again. The triage nurse, when determining if we were worthy of an appointment, asked me how often they eat. And I said every two hours (but it’s frequently much more often than that), and she snarkily informed me that it takes at least 2.5 hrs for their stomachs to empty, so no WONDER they “spit up” all the time. Um, it may take that long for their stomachs to empty, but they obviously don’t know or don’t care about that fact. I try to stretch them as long as possible, but when your kid is screaming in hunger, after a while, you should probably feed them. They don’t have a watch. They don’t know whether it’s been 2, or 4, or 10 hours. They just know when they’re hungry, and for these guys, it’s anywhere from one hour to three hours after they last ate.
So feh. I’m not sure what to do about it (and I’m not necessarily asking for advice about it either, though if you’ve got something novel to add that doesn’t involve telling me to let them scream until hoarse because “it hasn’t been long enough!” or “babies just *have* to cry sometimes!”, then feel free to share.). I know what makes sense for me as a parent, and that is to respond to their needs, but unfortunately, for me, right now this means that my needs are going largely unmet.
Except, of couse, on the night-sleep front. They are starting to go for slightly longer stretches at night. We’ve started a routine of sorts in the evenings, and we try to get them into bed, asleep, between 7:00 and 8:00. And this is great because it affords us a little time to get some things done or to have a half-hour to ourselves. They generally wake up again between 11 and 12, and again around 3 or 4 and again around 6 or 7. So, we get a few long-ish stretches of sleep most nights (which is better than the sometimes once-an-hour nonsense they get stuck on… luckily that’s not too often that this happens) but it’s certainly not the same as sleeping through the night. I’m headed onto a year since I last had a good night’s sleep with any regularity, and I’m starting to feel downright stupid.
Anyhow, I don’t mean to say that WAH, WAH, WAH, MY LIFE SUCKS, etc., just to say that I’m tired and I feel like complaining which is why I haven’t posted much in the last week.
Because life doesn’t suck. The boys spent a good five minutes this morning staring at each other, trading smiles and coos back and forth. It was ridiculously cute. They are getting slightly easier, bit by bit. It’s still incredibly hard, but they’re starting to cry a little less, or to at least cry with more focus. I got a 3 minute shower the other day by putting them in bouncy chairs and popping my head out from behind the curtain ever ten seconds to say something silly to the boys
(they find the word ‘poop!’ to be hilarious. I guess the affection for potty humor starts early…). It’s weird what amounts to a notable achievement these days.
So, yes. The boys are adorable and amazing as always. I am fine, if a bit tired/grouchy lately. And I think that brings us up to speed on the status quo.
And now, a request for advice: Anyone have any tips to share on dipping milk supply? As mentioned earlier, they pretty much eat round the clock during the day. I’ve been trying to watch my hydration levels and to eat a little better and to pump as I have time, but by the end of the day, just when they’re hungriest, I seem to have nothing left to give. Before bed, I nurse them, then I feed them a 4 oz bottle of formula, and they slurp it down and then ask for more. And I usually give them another ounce or two of formula and then breast feed them again after that. Anyway, I can’t say for sure that my supply is going down, but the eating-all-day-never-satisfied thing and then gobbling down formula seems to indicate that they aren’t getting enough to fill them up. They are still gaining weight, but I lack the mental acuity at this point to calculate whether it’s the 1/2 to 1 oz a day they’re supposed to be gaining– point being, it’s not dire, but I definitely want to keep breast feeding them as close to full-time as possible for as long as possible, and the lagging supply seems to be counter to that goal.
Yeah. And you? How was your week?
Oh, what? You aren’t leaving without seeing pictures of the cuteness?