Babies are sleeping through the night (mostly) and have been for a while (mostly). Did I mention that here yet? I can’t remember. I think I started a post about it, but dropped it like a hot potato when I realized how I might be tempting fate. So, Fate, be on notice– I say this with the utmost respect for whatever sacrifice was made that allowed me to have two babies who (after more than nine months) finally sleep through the night.
Of course, by “sleep through the night”, I mean that they typically go down around 8:30 or so, and they may stir a few times, looking for a cuddle or a pat, but don’t actually wake until 5:30 a.m. or so, at which point, they nurse and go back to sleep for another couple of hours. And sometimes, they even skip that 5:30 feeding, which is awesome.
I have no time for anything anymore. I’m enjoying every second of this life I’m leading, but I’m wholly unable to get even the most basic of tasks completed (move laundry from washer to dryer, make a 30-second phone call, return an email, etc.). Why, you ask? Why can I not just leave the boys in the (what I thought was) well-childproofed playroom and dash off for a few seconds?
Ah, because one of my children is Jack. And Jack is Mobile (note the capital M there). This child is going to be the death of me:
And then, of course, there’s the fact that when I run out of the room for a few minutes, I miss things like this:
So, you know. It’s been hard to make time for blogging and commenting, etc. when I cannot even get enough time alone to pee, much less to actually type a cohesive string of thoughts.
The Kinda Scary:
So, I can’t remember if I mentioned it here or not. I think I did, but you know, I can’t remember anything these days (I really am convinced that my brain is still shrunken from pregnancy/early-infancy-parenting, etc.). ANYWAY, in the case I didn’t mention it and/or you didn’t read it or your brain is similarly afflicted, I had a weird bout of dizziness last month, combined with some visual disturbances and a headache. I get migraines, and one of the hallmarks of my particular flavor of migraine is that they come with blank spots in my vision. VERY disturbing, but among the various migraine symptoms, the blank spots just aren’t that big of a deal. So, last month, I had that spell of dizziness/visual issues, and I took myself to the after-hours clinic, thinking that it was probably a migraine coming on. And as I began describing my symptoms to the doctor, she stopped me and said that she really thought I should go to the ER, because dizziness, headache and visual issues in combination can mean something really scary and they didn’t have the equipment to diagnose me. (Hey, I did blog about this, right? About the MRI being horrible? Yeah, I think so.)
So, anyway, after that one episode of dizziness, which was really more of a kind of brown-out, pre-passing-out kind of feeling (everything starts to sound really far away, tunneling of my vision, panicky, unsettled feeling), I was okay for a couple of weeks. And then, this past Saturday, it came back while I was out at dinner with H and the boys. And then, it came back again on Tuesday morning. And again Tuesday evening. Only this time, there was no real headache (just a little normal headache that seems omnipresent in the world of twin parenting) or blank spots. And so, after Tuesday morning’s episode, I went back to the after-hours clinic (couldn’t get an appointment with my doc until the next day), and they tested and found nothing wrong (bloodwork, EKG, various simple neurological tests). The doctor there suggested seeing a cardiologist, because I’ve had heart palpitations lately (actually, I’ve had them all my life, I think), and seeing a neurologist. And just because I’m a freak, I also saw my regular primary doc on Wednesday morning and she agreed that a neurologist/cardiologist is the way to go forward.
Options on the table right now for possible diagnosis are:
1. Weird migraines that never progress to full-blown headaches
2. Blood sugar fluctuations (currently on a higher protein/lower sugar diet to see if that helps)
3. Small seizures (when it happens, I often have moderate aphasia and it also seems that it might possibly be triggered by high-pitched sounds)
4. Cardiac issues
While (1) and (2) aren’t yippie-skippy-happy things to deal with, (3) and (4) are 100% the opposite of yippie-skippy-happy. They kinda scare the shit out of me, frankly. I mean, it’s probably nothing, but all the same, I’d really like to know what’s going on that causes this. It is really scary being at home with the boys by myself and feeling like I’m not entirely certain of the durability of my consciousness. After talking with my mom this evening, she told me that this was the exact kind of anxiety reaction she used to have when confronted with heights and/or other panic situations. So I suppose that it’s also possible that these episodes are driven by anxiety, though at times when it happens, I’m not aware of any thoughts that usually trigger panic attacks (though, yes, it does feel somewhat like panic attacks I’ve had before, I guess).
So. I meet with the cardiologist on Monday. We will do a 24-hr monitoring and also just a general appointment. My neurologist appointment isn’t until week after next, so here’s hoping it’s NOT small seizures, ‘cos that’s a long damn time to go untreated if it IS something in the seizure arena. I haven’t had another episode since Tuesday, not a full-blown one at least. There have been some moments when I’ve felt some of the word loss and some slight fuzziness, or where I’ve had some tightness in my chest (though it was an extremely high pollen day today and I haven’t started taking my asthma/allergy meds yet this season), BUT I haven’t had a complete scary-as-hell, oh-my-god-am-I-about-to-pass-out moment since Tuesday.
Ahem. So, there we have it. The good (YAY, sleep!), the bad (oh, you monkey-children!) and the scary (wtf is up with my head, dude). How are things in your world? Smoother than over here, I hope. I welcome any and all advice/comments/commiseration, etc. I’m honestly just desperate to find out what’s going on and more desperate to just feel normal again. Sigh.
And now, I think I’ll head to bed and enjoy some of that uninterrupted sleep. Did I mention it? They’re BOTH sleeping through the night! Hallelujah!